- Look, - he said, - none of us want that to happen. We

I went on, but after a few steps, beret I felt like a fool. Looks like a kid who suddenly gets mad for no reason. beret What an idiot I was just. I turned around and waited for him to catch up with me. I could not look at him. There was no sound - no birdsong or insect sounds, nothing. beret
Both at the same time said, "I'm sorry" and then silently walked to the parking lot. I did not know what goes through the mind of Neo, but I myself was not able to think about anything. As I struggled different beret emotions - confusion, frustration, beret fear, regret and even embarrassment for my outburst.
- Look, - he said, - none of us want that to happen. We're both tired. Let's let it sit for a few days. Then if you wish you can call me. OK?
- I worry about you - she said - It was so nice to see you happier in the last few weeks. If you meet Neo really helps you in some way. But now it's over. I fear for you, Dan - for us. I was trying to be strong, but ... I'm afraid I'm married to ...
- I have prayed for you, Dan. Just this morning. I thought of all your sorrow, all your thoughts all your fighting and praying, God, do not you see how much I love him? If you do not love you if you did not like the truth so much it just going to play in front of others. But God, he suffers because he really wants the truth. Really cares. I was hoping that God sees it, Dan. I was hoping that he will take you out of this.
In our marriage, Carol and I constantly undergo a recurring scenario. Actually it looked like a constant struggle. She asked me how last week in which I was at a conference and I say, great. When she insisted on details and I was trying to give them to her, but my mind proved empty. Then she felt hurt, as if trying to hide something from her. Then I get angry because I was not really able to think of something to tell her and just wanted to leave me alone. Fortunately, this time not only was able to remember all the details, but I wanted to share them with her. I told her all about the ride on the Neo, our conversation and the outbreak on the way back. She listened with tears in his eyes and when he finally finished and sadly asked her, "What do I do now?" beret She said,
- You have to go talk to this guy. I do not know what it is Dan, but he seems to have what you need. I think God sent him into your life, but not just to help you to become a teacher. And maybe he also needs you. I hope you did not alienated.
Performed his duties on Sunday as I could better and managed to retain beret not call Neo until Monday afternoon. It was weird. Expected awkward conversation. beret When he said quite formally:
- Only if you promise not to touch sharp objects beret while I'm there. I saw what you can with the stick! - He joked. - Seriously, Dan, I will come with pleasure. I'm free Thursday and Friday.
I do not know what happened to me on Saturday. Like I was torn between my honest curiosity beret and desire to pursue truth and reality to be a shepherd - which means to live a role where the changes in theology have serious consequences. Long stagger between hope and despair in my ministry. Our talks revived hope that maybe I can do, but I think you have to call reality and despair again prevailed. When hope and despair encounter this often leads to explosion. Neo, I owe you this explanation and sorry for what happened.
On Wednesday threw version two and instead wrote the following short note on a beautiful card, they usually send people we like and who we have lost. I hope that my experience would be a joke to be understood. beret
When Neo arrived he greeted me warmly, this time with a hug instead of a handshake. I was unable to give him the card before Corrie and Trent come running to represent. They were in their football uniforms (after dinner had training) and a second Neo was on the field with them kicking footballs. I watched him through the window, his tie was slung over his shoulder and his suit crease while kicking, passing and dribbling did. He and the twins laughed. I felt that dinner will be something bad happens. beret
- This is the best sport in the world - he said when he returned while to catch his breath and straightened his tie. - This is one of the best poluzashtitnichki - said he saw Jess, which ran to shake his hand before they all sit down at the table.
Carol is usually quite troublesome, but soon after we sat down for dinner (I had prepared my specialty - red beans with spicy chicken), Neo them prone to telling stories about her childhood in Atlanta, how we met at Baylor and her work as a graphic designer before children are born. She in turn made him